Questions and quest for answers

When I read one of my fantastic friend's recent blogs, it felt as if she said what I thought and these thoughts which I thought that made only me almost psychotic, were also shared by some one else.
" Marriage" the topic that I find just like an impending dread. A dead end to all my plans and hopes. but something inevitable. but I feel that its just like bidding time.
Coming to think of it , marriage should be pleasant. something that should be welcomed when you finally find the person of your dreams. but what happens when you dont find the person of your dreams? do you just wait wondering if you are really doing right and not passing all those 'golden' opportunities that arranged marriage has to offer...perhaps by just adjusting a bit....but why should I adjust? why should I live my life, stranged, and moulded in a really ill fitting mould, the wings of freedom, already cut off. why should I really feel that marriage is a dead end from where there is no return???
Is companionship really that very important? yes sometimes it is...esp when you have no one to hang out with or when u need someone to just to talk to....but what if the one whom u get married to, is not receptive to you and your needs? is lifetime of suffocation more important than moments of loneliness???

Marriage, the more I hear of it, the more I run away from it, honestly, I dont want to compromise, not on the aspects I dont want to. but even if I dont feel like getting married, will I be left alone???(I am happy with my self, I dont find loneliness like a pain, I love it)

yes my questions sound so silly. marriage is a gamble and you never know what do you get. Its really like a surprise gift. but should it really be that way???? especially when you dont want to gamble in the first place