An email to you

Dear Namu


I didn’t know how to begin. My lappie open in front of me, I thought of you and smiled. There was drastic change in you. No longer ‘why me?’ attitude, you had a new mantra now. ‘yes…so what’

It is not that you had a hunky dory life. Infact of all the persons I have seen you seemed to have suffered most on all fronts. Work-home. Personal and professional. You faced a lot of battles and had a lot of betrayals. I wondered sometimes how do you survive. But today I saw you and had to admit, its you who brought that missing care in my life. “appreciate life” is what you said. You nudging me to explore, forging me to move ahead, never budging and give even failure a best shot and move ahead. I have written about most of the people who matter to me, but somehow you always slipped out. Maybe my thoughts were destined to be typed today. “you made my weekend” I said. And maybe even you wont understand how much I meant it. I was unable to face end of the year, not much laughter and joke around, but you taught me to appreciate and improvise. “this is life and its seldom fair.” Is what you seemed to have told me. I smiled again and I could see my reflection in DELL inspiron. My eyes had got back the lustre. The shine. Thanks for the magic Nams.

--your devil friend

Ash aka chakli

Me

The struggle has becomes me, the fight becomes me

I am on the side of right the truth is definitely me

Weakness comes and tears are found in me

And though I crash horribly, soaring becomes me

Dejection comes to me but a thought comes

Trials fail but final tribulance becomes me

I come down but rising becomes me

Hurt to the bone but fight becomes me

My pain becomes my strength my tears become my solance

I try again …one more time to just so that fight becomes me

At times the fight seems dirty and all ego filled and much as I run away from it vainness becomes me

So then unwillingly I take my sword and leaving the griminess of brain I just prepare my self to fight again, the fight just becomes my shadow, it becomes me

For Suresh wadkar2

OK, now this is another song sung my mohd. Rafi and sharada and ofcourse hummed by “suresh wadkar” as I call my pilla when he garbles something long.


I love songs and as you know after 9.30 pm after all the Marathi saas bahu is over my mother dozes off to old songs. For me old songs act like a balm to whole day of IT company nonsense :) (ok my daily bread is non sense but what is not?)my kiddo incidently hums something nonsensical to sleep. But that day this song came and the fella actually hummed mohd. Rafi’s part “o mere dil….” And no its not my imagination but my mother and I exclaimed at the same time “he is humming the song” and started to laugh..

So this is for my ‘pilla’ aka “suresh wadkar”

Movie: Ghumnaam

Singer(s): Mohammad Rafi, Sharda

Music Director(s): Shankar-Jaikishan

Lyricist(s): Shailendra

jane chaman shola badan, pehlu me aa jao
o mere dil mere hamdam, baho me aa jao

hai jane chaman shola badan, pehlu me aa jao
hai o mere dil mere hamdam, baho me aa jao

madhosh hai jindagee, charo taraf bekhudee - (2)
thamo mujhe mai gira -2, laheraye dil kee lagee

jane chaman shola badan, pehlu me aa jao
o mere dil mere hamdam, baho me aa jao

panee jo ham par gire, ek aag tan me lage - (2)
tumko khabar kya sanam -2, kehte hai ulfat ise

o mere dil mere hamdam, baho me aa jao
oye hoye jane chaman shola badan, pehlu me aa jao
badal se barse nasha, bhigee huyee hai fija - (2)
thandee hawa jab chale -2, kanpe hai dil kaa jiya

o mere dil mere hamdam, baho me aa jao
hai jane chaman shola badan, pehlu me aa jao
hai o mere dil mere hamdam, baho me aa jao
mm mm mm mm..........
jane chaman shola badan, pehlu me aa jao



PS : I don’t like sharada’s voice…nothing is audible and the feel is lost in her voice but mohd. Rafi is altogether a different story.. the guy has sung like absolutely drunk in love. 

Sau baar

This was one of the songs that used to be frequently seen in the era of doordarshan and chitrahaar and used to be heard on vividhbharti at 11.30 am in the morning. I used to love to see this song and hear the music, a bit haunting melody and amazing highs and lows, the lyrics I found were simple but keep repeating like rewind in your mind long after the song is heard.

Now a days we manage to see old song repository (:):)) at 9.30 pm after all marathi saas bahu crap is over. lovely and a bit forgotten songs freshen up the memory. of the actors and singers who have at times perished in the time. soothing songs lull to sleep and long after the song has ended it plays in mind as droopy eyes pop to sleep.

This song is from a black and white era and on two not that well known actors handsome Pradeep kumar (one who cannot act according to my dad) and shakila (‘hoon abhi main jawan aye dil’ from aar paar any one?), a bit of mirage (the hero seen and not seen..gayab aya kinds)the enormous waterfalls, sung by mohd. Rafi, (who is slowly becoming one of my favourites but always next to Kishore kumar ofcourse) written by ‘Asrad bhopali’ and music given by ‘ravi’ from the film ‘Ustadon k ustaad’
sau baar janam lenge, sau baar fana honge
ai jaane wafa phir bhee, ham tum naa juda honge

kismat hame milane se, rokegee bhala kab tak
inn pyaar kee raaho me, bhatakegee wafa kab tak
kadamo ke nishaan khud hee manjil kaa pata honge (CH)

yeh kaisee udaasee hai, jo husn pe chhaayee hai
ham dur nahee tumse, kahane ko judaayee hai
armaan bhare do dil phir ek jagah honge(CH)

The song has already started in my mind as I work in a near empty pre Christmas office and no…I am not seeing my better(?) half some cubicles farther :):):)