I am there (song)

(I have always loved composing (sad songs) so its not a surprise....but if one of my friends reads it, he will surely kill me :):) so sorry...but I just couldnt resist posting this}

its a long time now, I tell my heart,
U already have someone, and I have no place in your life
but my heart still cries at night, when memories of you flood in front of my eyes
Loneliness is the only friend I have,and life has become a foe
I wonder if i am living and if so why.
heart ache, I never asked for, a little of your
love is all I expected and thats all
its lucky that you dont feel the way I do, coz if u did, u would understand, that death seems to be the only solution at such times, living just looks so hard.
I am there, on the very same road,standing in the sun,closing my eyesI am there, not knowing what to do, coz I had never imagined my life without you
I am there.
sometimes I think that its a nightmare,
and when I wake up, I will have you in my arms again
But my mind just knows that it will never happen, and those are just idle thoughts of my heart.
sometimes I am happy that you didnt feel the way I did.
that you were never that involved as I was.
coz if you did, it would be even more difficult for us to part.
I am just here, caught in the web of loneliness,
I am just here, on the very same road, watching you faze away in life,watching you as I do, tears blindning my eyes
I am there
the cold is just seeping in my life, the darkness and melancoly just dont leave me alone
and I weep and weep, of what has happened of my life
I just cant pick up the pieces,but just stare at them, wondering what to do with them with emptyness in my heart
Give me atleast a reason of why we partedc
oz I dont have a clue
give me a reason of your unfaithfulness
coz I havent an idea
give me a reason that why was I betrayed
coz, i just dont believe it in the heart
give me a reason to hate youcoz my heart still loves you more than myself
and I cant just bear the pain of staying apart
I am there where you left me, seeing the back of you, wishing that once you would turn and take me in your arms
I am there, wishing that all this that was happening would just be one of the jokes, and that you would soon laugh,
I am there wishing if I could just get my own life back, which didnt have you but was peaceful, and not as unsure as is now.