Just why???

Looking at u,sitting in front of me,
talking through ur eyes, stealing my self, thru ur smile,
I wonder if I am showing,
that my thoughts are strictly not friendly,
and that I feel a lot more than lightly flirty.
I stop my self from not staring,
still you catch me do that once in a while,
and when you ask me whats wrong,
I brush it off with something vague, not meeting you eye to eye.
oops that one look of you just takes my breath away,
and I am lost when you talk to me like that, barely understanding a thing.
and when some really nasty thoughts come in my mind I just cant stop smiling.
But u notice and ask me why,
But what can I tell you that it was u I was thinking of,
wondering what ur reaction would be if my thousand Ifs come true , become real and alive :)
that I find u closer than anyone else I have found in life,
that I am hopelesssly falling in love with u,
and sometimes I just wonder why.