Entry from perfection to reality

The treat was a success….lots of photos ,laughs jokes and eat …smoke and fermented smell of the warm…or say hard drinks… are bringing lift to otherwise always wilted mood. There were mood swings and some or maybe lot of dwelling in the past…trying to create something out of nothing….the knowledge that some things were just vain…that one had to move ahead …a high time …needed some reason to do that…the life was getting ruined by keeping this perpetual sadness and coldness in the heart…months passed and still the mental state was the same …the cold had seeped in to the very being…making the alienation to the world almost perpetual…a barrier from taking what life had otherwise to offer…and just when one thinks that one has had…conquered the loneliness…one wave just destroys whatever was built…making the efforts to be indifferent…to get out seem so vain….it was never known that she was that weak built…she had better constitution and better resistance…she was proud that she could handle things the meanest of them in a real efficient manner…but this was one time when she failed miserably…it was the will to get out that made her suffer more…she shook her head mentally and tried to concentrate on what her colleague was saying…and gave a laugh…for the hec of it??? She let out a deep breath…she was never pretentious…and look what she had become…a perfect actress…mentally she cheered herself…”welcome to the world of masks”