The year started on a nice note. The stress that we faced for past 3 years, the uncertainty of will we or wont we (blame on visa status) got pushed to two years later. Two years where we will breathe ....and not wonder what next...then came pilla's thread ceremony which called for a visit to my motherland. A lot of internal stresses and more so since I am of that tendency of internalizing. Trying to calm too many flared tempers while becoming a rock to Pilla who was at his confusion best but the only person stronger was him at the end of the day.
We came back to have one last breath before COVID took the would and lives by the storm. Schools closed, so did so called lifestyle of eating out and travelling so much so that we didnt do our nearly annual pilgrimage to Pittsburg.
But lots of things came to perspective in this rough patch. This life taught me to let go and take a deep breath in that mask. That there are options, there are tomorrows and if nothing works, a daily masked walk always helps. Writing helps, art helps.
Getting attracted and trying different arts. Winning a small art contest on third place boosted my never existing enthusiasm.
And finally life decided to teach me to live...atleast a little bit for my self. Cook a little something just for my self. Buying foods that I like and ofcourse moving towards using anything to maximum, reducing waste and basing life on minimalism (hope to work on this continiously in 2021)
Lots of resolutions that I dont want to break. Nothing unrealistic but letting go procastination.
I hope this 2021 helps me achieve all that I thought was not worth it, of learning to let go and keeping my self a priority once a while.
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