Sunday, March 10, 2019

Starting a new year post in march with meyer-briggs and wondering...

"You are an introvert??" were the words of wonder from my better(?) half's mouth. he wondered how this lady who chattered the ears out, seemed to be comfortable in outings and social events, laughed and shared, was an introvert and even leaving that, hated social events in the first place. "I don't want to go...i don't feel like going" is my first statement the day of the event. after the usual cool headed better (?) half, knowing after so many years what to say, I just wish internally that I fall sick bad. but being married to another introvert, who given a chance will prefer to stay with his cellphone than social events (who has sent me more than once to a social and or family event alone, because of his discomfort), I know even if I fall sick, I have to grab a paracetamol and with my kid go to the event. At the event, unless I have a close friend, I wonder when lunch or dinner will happen and glance at better (?) half for cues to leave.


Meyers briggs is a psychological test which is robust and valid (not some quack test that comes in some women magazines), the access to which I had when I was completing my masters in psychology from IGNOU. We always used such tests on us, and write the results. my personality type came as "IN**" (I don't want to reveal too much of that) the I standing for introvert.


As much as I bluffed my self to life and people, I know my self too well to agree with the results. I chatter with any tom dick and harry but I am more happy with my self. I hate social events but my mask reveals otherwise and when I come home, I crash in the bed with emotional exertion. I have few real friends and others think that I am a good friend of theirs. I don't cheat here for them to believe but I have a good ear for allowing them to speak. Funny right...but I am happy, with this test, atleast some aspects of my self, which were confusing even to me are revealed.